Papa Don’t Preach: Chapter 12

Eric coasted into Sonic and stopped at one of the carhop stations. “Do you know what you want, Sook?”

She leaned around him to glance at the menu, even though she always ordered the same thing. “I will have a large cherry-limeade and a Chicago dog.”

“Fries or tots?”

“Mmm, they both sound good. I think I want tots.” She tapped her chin while her stomach grumbled. It wasn’t quite dinnertime but she hadn’t eaten much at lunch.

He placed their orders while she giggled under her breath at the amount of food he ordered.

“Feeding an army?” She asked with a smile, glad to be able to relax with him after her doctor’s appointment.

“If we’re considered an army!” He grinned and settled back into his seat, appraising her.

“What?”

He shrugged his shoulders and brushed his hair off his forehead. “Nothing really. Everything just became pretty real.”

“I know. Imagine what it’ll be like when we hear a heartbeat.” She reached over and held his hand, squeezing it. “I’ll never be able to thank you enough for what you’re doing.”

He kissed the back of her hand. “You don’t need to thank me, Sook. You’d do it for me.” He pulled her along the bench seat until she was settled into the crook of his arm.

“Of course, I’d be happy to watch you give birth to a baby!” She giggled, her petite frame shaking his chest.

“So funny, Stackhouse.” He groaned. “Seriously, though. Today was pretty…intense. And kinda scary. Are you okay?”

“Honestly, I haven’t processed it yet. I’m just trying to get through the week and telling Daddy.”

“Your Mama, too.” He added.

“Nah, I think I will let Daddy do that. She won’t kill him.” Sookie slid her arm around Eric’s stomach, giving him a good squeeze. “Can I ask you something?”

“Anything.”

“When did you…I mean- I didn’t know that you…um…” She sighed heavily, struggling to get her words out.

“When did I have sex?” He asked.

She nodded.

“Not too long after you started seeing Alcide.” He admitted quietly.

“Oh.” She thought over what he had said, wondering if he had done it because she was dating Alcide. “Anyone I know?”

“Yeah.” He sighed. “You sure you want the details?”

“I think so.”

“It was Stacy Summers.”

“Your 9th grade girlfriend?” Sookie sat up, surprised. Eric dated Stacy briefly their freshman year. Sookie didn’t care for her much, mainly because Stacy was mean to her.

“Yep.”

They were interrupted when their food was delivered. Eric took a big bite of his burger, probably so he wouldn’t have to answer any more questions. Sookie thoughtfully nibbled on her tots, not as hungry as she had been. “Are you guys back together?”

“No! No, it was just something that happened.”

“Did it happen a lot?”

He paused before he took another bite, weighing his words. “Yeah, for awhile it did.” He looked at her, curious. “What is it you are getting at, Sookie?”

“I don’t know. I…I guess after homecoming, I kind of thought that we were going to be one another’s firsts.” Her cheeks flushed red, unable to meet his eyes.

“Yeah, so did I. But even if I hadn’t slept with Stacy that wouldn’t have been the case, would it?” His voice changed like it did when something was bothering him.

She put down her food and leaned forward, burying her face in her hands. “Everything’s so messed up, Eric. Nothing was supposed to be like this.” She fought back the tears as they welled up in her eyes.

“No, it wasn’t.” He responded around the bite he was finishing. “But things don’t always go the way we want them to.”

“Don’t I know it!” She rubbed her stomach. “I’m just a kid, Eric! And so are you! How am I supposed to do this? What am I supposed to do?” Her voice rose with every word.

“Sook, getting upset isn’t going to help you, or the baby.” He scooted towards her and rubbed her back.

“I’m mad, Eric! I’m really mad! Why aren’t you mad?”  Sookie’s pitch was just short of shouting and she was glad he parked towards the back.

“Who says I’m not mad?” Eric asked as he forced her to look him in the face, his eyes blazing. “Do you have any idea how it felt when you started dating him, knowing what kind of guy he was? Knowing that he took something from you that –“

“That what, Eric?” She tugged on his hand. “What?”

“That was almost mine.” He gazed into the distance and ran his fingers roughly through his hair.

“I didn’t do this on purpose. I didn’t date him to hurt you. After homecoming I was so confused and you backed off so much, I didn’t know what to think.”

“I know.”

“You promised me that things would go back to normal in a few days and they didn’t! You refused to even talk to me. You abandoned me!” She remembered how much it hurt as she felt Eric grow distant from her.

“I thought they would. I didn’t know it would take so long and by the time I felt like I could talk to you about it…”

“I was with Alcide.” She finished for him. “Maybe you shouldn’t have taken so long.”

“Hey! Don’t blame this all on me! You have a part in this, too.” His voice went up a notch and she could see his hand gripping his thigh.

“I know.”

“Do you really think there wasn’t a fucking day that went by where I didn’t hate myself for taking so long?” He balled up what was left of his food and threw it in the trash outside his window. His eyes glistened.

“Eric.” Sookie rested her hand on his clenched one, trying to get him to calm down.

“What did I do wrong, Sookie?” His jaw clenched. “Will you please just tell me what I did wrong that night?”

She moved so she was facing him, both hands on his. “Eric, I swear to you, you did nothing wrong.”

“Stacy didn’t have any complaints.” He mumbled, refusing to meet her eyes.

Sookie recoiled as if he had slapped her in the face. She knew he was lashing out because he was hurt, but it didn’t make her feel any better. “Take me home, Eric.” She threw the rest of her food away and fastened her seat belt.

“Fuck! Sookie, I’m sorry.” He took her hand but she pulled it away. “I should’ve never said that. I didn’t mean it.”

“Please. It’s been a long day.” She said quietly, leaning against the door her head resting in her hand.

Eric started the car and turned on the radio. They both tensed as the song that played the night of the dance came on. Sookie was determined not to speak before he did. The day had been hot and long, she was worn out.

She felt his hand reach across the seat and hold hers again once they were on the main road home. This time she didn’t pull away and he entwined her fingers with hers. His thumb traced circles on the inside of her palm and she relaxed minutely.

It was seven when they got home and they both needed to finish studying for finals. Eric put the car in neutral, reminiscent of that night so many months ago. He cleared his throat and she knew he was going to ask her again.

“What happened that night, Sook?” He asked, looking into her eyes.

Try as she might, she couldn’t look away. “I don’t know.”

“Yes, you do.”

“Eric, I can’t talk about it.”

“Did you not want me that way?”

She brought her knee up onto the seat, turning towards him so she could see his face clearly while they talked. “Eric, I wanted you more than anything.”

He picked at a piece of fuzz on his shorts. “More than Alcide?”

“More than Alcide.” She picked up his hand that still held hers and placed a soft kiss on it.

“Then why did we stop? I mean, besides the obvious.” His face was nearly stricken with his confusion.

“I’m not ready to talk about it.”

“Any of it? Was it just one thing or a bunch of things? Did I hurt you? Was I rough?” His voice cracked and it hit her in the pit of her stomach. For as tough and strong and capable as Eric was, she realized she made him vulnerable.

She slid her arms around him, holding him close. He hugged her in return and sighed shakily. She whispered against his neck. “You, Eric, were perfect. You were soft, gentle and slow. I was scared of what things would be like, if we would still feel the same way about one another.”

He turned to her ear and murmured. “Nothing and everything would have changed that night, Sookie. It wasn’t something to be scared of.”

She squeezed him again, letting his words sink in. “That wasn’t the only reason.”

“I know.” He felt sure if they continued speaking softly, holding one another close that maybe she would be ready to tell him.

Sookie shuddered and shook her head, letting her face hide in his neck. “I’m not ready to tell you yet.” She whispered.

Eric felt her tears on his neck and he fought back his frustration. Combing his fingers through her hair he nodded.

“I will tell you soon. I owe this to you.” She sniffed and he tightened his grip when she shook again. “I’m trying. I promise I’ll tell you soon. Just don’t go away again.”

He lifted up and settled her in his lap, marveling at how small she was. His hands could easily touch his opposite elbows when he held her like this. He wondered what it would be like when she started to change. “You have my word. I’m not going anywhere. Ever.”

“I don’t know if I am ready for an us, Eric. So much has happened in such a short amount of time, I can barely keep up with the changes.”

He shrugged in response. “Whether there is an us or not, I’m still here.”

“Okay.” She settled against his chest as he loosened his hold a bit. They sat there in silence, thinking about everything that had been said between them, knowing there was plenty left unsaid. Eric held her until the sun set in the sky and with that simple gesture she understood what he had been trying to tell her.

A/N: Hi, guys! I haven’t been updating the story because I have been a little bummed by the lack of reviews. :o( Its hard when a chapter receives hundreds upon hundreds of hits and only a few people comment. I have up to chapter 15, but I am wondering if I should even continue the story? If you are enjoying the store and would like to read more, please let me know! If you aren’t enjoying it, please also take a moment to let me know why and I will work on it. To get better as a writer, we all need constructive feedback. Thanks, guys! And have a Happy Halloween!

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43 responses to “Papa Don’t Preach: Chapter 12

    • Thanks, Miss Rissa! I appreciate your words. I don’t want to be whiney but it’s hard not to feel a little bummed about it, you know? I am glad you are enjoying the story, though. A few of you comment every time, but it’s the other 300+ readers that don’t take the time. LOL It means a lot! 🙂

  1. I’m enjoying it too 🙂 Sometimes (okay, a lot of the time) I just don’t know what to say in a review other than ‘Nice chapter’ which isn’t very useful. But your work is definitely appreciated!

    • Hi, R! I am glad you are enjoying it! And you know what? I don’t even mind a “Nice chapter” comment, it still lets me know I have readers out there. 🙂 Thank you for coming out to let me know! XO

    • Thank you so much for commenting, Kimberly! I really appreciate it and am so glad you are enjoying this story! Thanks for taking the time to let me know, it means a lot!

  2. I’m a horrible, terrible, person. I have a really hard time when I’m writing a fic, because if I don’t get many reviews for a chapter, I find it extremely difficult to get motivated to work on the next chapter. Yet, as a reader, I rarely submit reviews. Sometimes it’s because I don’t have much to say beyond good job, or something of the sort. A lot of the time though, it’s because I have an opinion of where I’d like the story to go. As a writer, I HATE it when readers tell me what to write in MY story. If they have such a strong opinion on what to put in a story, they should write it themselves. For that fact, I don’t like to write reviews doing the same, because I don’t think it’s fair or right. I don’t mind telling a write where I think their story might go, but, I won’t tell them what to write or not write, unless they specifically ask.

    That being said, I really am enjoying this story. I have a couple of guesses about why Sookie won’t tell Eric why she stopped him “that night,” but, for now, I’ll keep those to myself. The suspense of waiting to find out is really frustrating, but, I guess that’s what keeps me coming back to see each and every chapter you post!

    • Ashley Sue, thank you for your thoughtful comment! I know exactly what you mean about leaving reviews. I think all of my smarts are used while writing, so when it’s time to leave a review I am often out of words! I always try to at least leave a “Nice job” or “I am really loving your story!” just to let the writer know I appreciate their work. And I forbid you to say you are an terrible, horrible person! Because I totally understand. And thank YOU for understanding how I feel. When you get so many hits and you get just a few response, your first thought is “Wow…did they hate it that much?” which leads into “Why should I even bother posting?” Because let’s be honest…while this is MY story and I do write for myself, I want to the feedback. I need it. I crave it. It makes me smile and giggle. Or cry depending on what the feedback is. LOL

      I am very curious to see if what your guesses are and if they match what the actual situation is! 😉 I anticipate her explaining it to Eric after prom, which I am guessing will be around chapter 17-19. It will probably be the night she tells her dad about the baby, or the day after.

      Again… thank you. You totally made me smile. 🙂

  3. This story is amazing! When ever I see it in my e-mail it’s the first one I click on. Please don’t stop writing and definitely write faster cause I want to read a happy ending to this story!

    • Thanks, Ashley! I feel special to know you read this first!! I am pretty sure I have Chapter 13 back from my beta, so I should be able to update. Thank you SO much for taking the time to let me know you are reading!

  4. Please don’t stop this story. I personally am enjoying it very much. I hope that she is able to open up to Eric soon. As hard as it is he really does deserve to know the truth. I mean he has put himself out there for her. Can’t wait for more

    • Vilannh,

      Thank you for your input! It warms my heart. 🙂 Sookie WILL be telling Eric, probably within a few days of prom. I am expecting it to be around chap 17-19. I know it seems like a longs ways off, but it hasn’t actually been that long since Sook found out she was pregnant. I know the story has been moving a bit slow, but I do intend to start skipping forward once their birthdays come.

  5. Please continue writing this! I thought this was a great chapter. I’m glad that Eric and Sookie talked a bit about things. I know it’s not completely resolved and that she still needs to tell Eric why she pulled away. Hopefully she will be able to work up to that soon. Awesome job!

    • Hey, Erin! I am glad you are still enjoying the story. Sookie is working on her courage and will be talking to Eric around chapter 17-19 about what happened that night. She desperately wants to tell him, but is having a very hard time bringing herself to do so.

      Thank you for taking the time to leave a comment tonight. XO

  6. Ohh, I love this story! You have to go with it! I’m confusing about Sookie, she don’t have anything clear.. Is like ‘yeah, but no’! Poor Eric, I don’t know how he have so much patience for Sookie, I mean, He’s in love in her but c’mon.. He understand too much and she don’t give answers, It’s frustrating!
    I’ll be waiting another chapter SOON 🙂

    • Hi, A!! You and my beta are on the same page! She is ready to strangle Sookie! LOL I promise she will tell him soon. It’s a really big deal for her and she’s having a hard time just letting it out. It greatly affected her intimate relationships, especially the one she tried to have with Eric. All will be revealed soon!

      Thanks for always being such a great commenter, I appreciate it so much!! You are a sweetie! 🙂

  7. I understand your frustration at having few comments, but sometimes when things are good, as a viewer people think ” Well it’s great, what else is there to say.” Also for me, I like regular and frequent updates so that I don’t have to go back and re-read the previous chapters to know what’s going on. So that could be part of it. I think you are doing a good job but would like to hear more from EPOV. I want to know his thoughts as well since he bit the bullet on this one. And yes, Sookie needs to talk to him about her issue. She is frustrating me some although her previous experience with a relationship was with a bum, she has known Eric long enough that she should be able to take that leap of faith with him. JMO

    • Hi, whodat! Thank you for your candor! I was updating once a week for the first 9 or so chapters, but honestly the lack of feedback really made me not want to update. 😦 So that is why the updates have been so far apart. I honestly don’t mind “Great job” comments, in fact they mean just as much as ones that are long and articulate, because it lets me know that one more person is reading and enjoying. 🙂

      I don’t know how far we will get into EPOV, as of right now I haven’t written anything that is solely from his perspective, but I wont count it out. I just haven’t been struck with anything that he feels he wants to share.

      I totally get your frustration about Sookie not telling Eric yet, my beta was about ready to flip her lid about it, too! LOL She actually doesn’t know anymore then you guys do, so she is also dying to know- but she also feels Sookie is kind of jerking Eric around. Believe me when I say that is not Sookie’s intention, I think she truly wants to tell him, but remember it’s been about a week since the first chapter and she has had a LOT happen in a very short amount of time. I think that not only is it hard for her to bring up those memories and explain what happened to her, but she is also really scared it is going to change how Eric looks at her. You and I both know on the outside looking in there is no way it would– because that just isn’t his style, but I can understand her fear. She’s very young.

      That being said, I love this Eric so much and Sookie is a sweetie who has made some bad choices. I have every intention of them having their time together and closing their story on a very happy note. 😉 Thanks for hanging in there during the ups and downs and again I really appreciate you speaking your mind and doing so in a polite manner. Not all feedback has to be good– constructive feedback helps us all write better! ❤

  8. I love this story and hope you’ll continue
    I’m really anxious to know about Sookie’s issue she won’t discuss although I have an idea of what it might be. I hate that things got so messed up between them, they are such a sweet couple
    Thanks for writing

    • Kja, I think I am definitely feeling the love today! It’s sad how things transpired with Sookie and Eric. She had the best of intentions and she really cared for him, and he for her, but she just couldn’t shut her mind off. 😦 I understand why she didn’t want something so special with him to be tainted by her bad memories, but poor Eric doesn’t know that yet, so who knows what is going through his mind! Besides that he wasn’t good enough. 😦 They are awfully sweet together and I am all for a HEA with not too much angst along the way! Thank you for sticking with me through this journey and letting me know how much you enjoy it as we go along, it makes me so happy! ❤

  9. Please keep updating. I love this story and check ff for updates regularly. I really want this sookie and eric together and happy. I feel like they are each others other half.

    • Hey, Sara! Thanks for commenting and I am so happy to know you like the story. I think Sookie and Eric are two halves of one whole, too. I look forward to their HEA! Goodness knows we probably won’t get it on the show! LOL 🙂

  10. Love it and please finish sometimes you get so involed in the story you forget but I promise to give you a lot of love for it is not easy what all of you writers do so Iam sorry for not doing this sooner.Thank you for the stories,and your time .

    • Aww, thanks Rosemary! I appreciate it so much that you are enjoying the story and understand where I am coming from. For the first time in a long time I am actually excited to get the next chapter posted and continue to work on the story. Your comments along with everyone else who has taken the time to let me know they are reading has really meant a lot to me! XO

    • Hi, Danielle! Thank you for dealing with the annoyance of commenting while on your phone, I know what a pain that is! I often read from my Nook at night and it is frustrating tapping it out from there, too! LOL Anyways, thanks for hanging in there with me and for reading, your comment made me smile. 🙂

  11. Hopefully she can muster up the courage and trust him enough to tell him soon. Poor kids! This story is fantastic though and as I said on FF, I sincerely hope you decide to continue it! 🙂

    • Ashleigh, Thanks so much from coming over from FF to read. I appreciate your kind comments both places. Sookie will for sure be telling Eric shortly after their prom. Did you catch the Homecoming Outtake? I know everyone was anxious to read it, I hope it didn’t disappoint! 🙂

  12. i just found this story and i love it, even through i like only a few of AH SVM fics. the way they’re interacting is great. and i’m very curious what else you have in store for them. please continue:)

    • I take that as quite the compliment!! I remember the first AH SVM I read. I was SO against venturing into AH because it seemed…silly! After I read the first chapter of kjwrit’s “All In” I was totally hooked. LOL

      Thank you for taking the time to comment and letting me know you are enjoying the story! I plan to update towards the end of the week. 😉

  13. So here I am on ch 12 and I know that I only have 2 more chapters; you really should do something about that! This story is so compelling, I haven’t liked a young Sookie/Eric in such a long time. I empathize with your feelings of disappointment when you don’t get the reviews you so richly deserve (and that is not me being sarcastic-sincerely!) I had a writer friend who poured her heart into her work and would feel so deflated and depressed when she would get very few reviews, so because of her I always write reviews (well not always if I can’t stand something I move on).

    Okay not that that’s out of the way I swear my stomach dropped when Eric said “Stacy didn’t have any complaints.”, I wanted to hate him so much in that moment but all of us have said shitty things when we’ve been hurt. I really must use the thesaurus next time I write a review because I need more words than “I love this”, “this is great” or “these two are the best”. I’m going to work on my vocab, you work on ch 15, 16, 27, 35…

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